Passing judgement without reason is lethal. You can never grow or learn more if you are constantly putting a person, idea, or place down. I’ve recently started noticing how unwarranted some people’s negativity can be. Opinions are healthy, different perspectives are necessary, but negative presumptions are toxic. To me, having an open mind and the curiosity to learn are some of the most beautiful qualities we can posses as human beings. If you find yourself in the company of someone who has turned sour, try to remind them that there is no harm in listening and learning more.
I’ve been having a lot of restless nights lately. I go to bed tired, but then I lie in bed wide awake. An anxious feeling consumes me. I am excited, nervous, scared shitless. Up until now, life has been a single staircase and I just took steps. But now, as I’m preparing to graduate college, I take my final step. But my final step to where? It doesn’t just stop. I see doors, I see another set of stairs, and another and another, I see slides and I see bikes and I see planes that can take me everywhere. I don’t know what I want to do or where I want to go and that terrifies me. I thought college was supposed to be the step I took to get to the step where I knew what the rest of my life would look like. But here I am, up at 2 am thinking about all the possibilities–and all the consequences. I guess that’s a beautiful thing though, right? This panic that I am so privileged to have? I get to dream about a world filled with opportunities and challenges, but soon I will be apart of it. It will be chaotic and messy, but an adventure all my own. This uncertainty is unsettling, but then again if I was completely certain what sort of nights would I have? What sort of dreams would I dream?